Everything sublime is as difficult as it is rare. Baruch Spinoza

Wednesday, February 11, 2026

Whiling the Winter Away



Yes, I'm housebound and just a tiny bit stir crazy. I will be leaving the abode sometime on Thursday.....yay. In the meantime I go through photos. Why not? It's more enjoyable than cleaning the house. I have no idea who these two are but they were in with the hundreds of others. Why did children always look stern? They are a distant relative of some sort. It's really too bad no one thought to put names and dates on the photos, but then either did I when I was actually using film.


Fast forward decades........

This is a photo of Matthew, upper left, with the neighborhood buds. He was early teens. He is all paternal family in looks and build. He did somehow end up with black hair in his early twenties, which would be my lineage. Always a serious expression.


 We are in a too warm spell.




Sunday, February 8, 2026

Let Me Eat Cake


We are having a warming trend at the moment. I know this sounds good, but warming above freezing causes problems for hoofed animals. It always turns to ice in the end. I prefer 20-30 F myself. But the weather does not care one whit what I prefer.

Even if I didn't know it is warmer Tabby's behavior would tell me. He is spending less time in the house. He was enjoying his repose the other day.


I've been spending time on small organizing jobs. They do add up over time. I also have been spending time baking. I have never been very interested in desserts but the anxiety swirling around seems to have awakened a sweet tooth I didn't know I had. Yesterday I made a lemon ricotta cake. Too bad my baking friends live far away. I have a lot of whey they could have. I use it for making bread.


My food hoarding urge is on alert. As my friend, the psychiatric nurse, told me, it's all about the need to feel control. Mine manifests itself in stocking up food. Just as I had become less of a hoarder we went back into turmoil. So both freezers are packed. Shelves are full. And I'm eating desserts! Which isn't the worst thing in the world. I'm going to Aldi this week to buy food for the local food shelf. I've donated money to an organization providing food for the residents in Minneapolis and St. Paul. It's what I can do.

That's the news from my corner of the world.  

Saturday, February 7, 2026

2008


Things change yet stay the same. Or worsen. 


I wrote this the first month of my first year of blogging, August 2008. I remember this. It was horrendous what was done to this young woman. She had/has serious mental illness and to do this to anyone, much-less one so vulnerable is unforgivable. The anonymous writer scalded her. If you are going after someone on a public forum at least use your name. 

The reason I reposted it is, look at where we are now. The bile that is spewed daily, the loss of decorum, of basic manners and decency is overwhelming. The vilifying of large groups of people, the murdering of people in the streets. The fact that the government is now trying to deport a five-year-old. And about 40% of our population condones this. It's shameful.

Off my soapbox now. I'm in a mood.

Friday, February 6, 2026

Horse Play

Geezers at play



 
24 and 26 years old and they never grew up. I should be so lucky.


 



Thursday, February 5, 2026

Fruity


Boud had asked for photos of my big Costco adventure but I got to replies after the fact. Since my life is rather narrow, as in a trip to Costco is an adventure, I saw this as I was getting ready for bed last night and knew it would make a fascinating blog post. Without further delay....fruit from the adventure! Tomatoes are, actually, a fruit, right? 

I have a lot of cut glass and crystal. Most of the cut glass was my grandma's. I decided a while ago that instead of collecting dust in a cabinet it may as well collect dust on the counter with fruit. So I load them up. 


I made a pot roast a few days ago, of which the leftovers became Wednesday's dinner. I don't like cooked carrots and Mark does, so he got the last of the potatoes and carrots. I opted for Brussels sprouts. Without the pot roast vegetables it doesn't look like much anything but some gravy covered meat. It was good all the same.


I've been spending time on the treadmill, just short slow walks throughout the day. I need to build up leg strength. I also have a pedal machine I haven't use for quite a while that I need to pull out. A few days ago I thought about the fact that I'm not getting any younger and if I want to be able to function as time goes on I had better take it seriously. So I'm trying. It's difficult for me to feel engaged at this time. Something many of us feel. But now is not the time to pull the blanket over the head. So.....that's that.

Wednesday, February 4, 2026

Power to the People


My deeply felt thank you to those who speak up. Not all have this talent but we do it in so many ways and it all matters.


https://youtu.be/fO-9JrPtj3Q?si=o2XLAqzFt0QzFIUt 

Tuesday, February 3, 2026

Carrying On


With the amount of absurdity swirling around those of us in the US, the schadenfreude of the few and the shock of everyone else, I have been busy trying to keep my sanity. What little remains. I've been doing a lot of baking and, of course, the general meal prep. Simple is so satisfying. Pan fried flounder. How simple and delicious on a cold Minnesota night.


Don't choke on your coffee, I will be leaving the walls of my own security to venture into the chaos of the world. I'm going to Costco. I feel like a world traveler.

 

Sunday, February 1, 2026

Clippity-Clop


Mail Delivery
 



There are so many of the very old photos in the boxes with nothing written on back. I know that, except for a few clearly marked, they come from my maternal family. I didn't know any of these photos existed until my mother died, so I never had an opportunity to ask. I come from a fractured family. I barely knew my paternal side, never meeting some of my father's siblings. I knew my maternal grandma, thankfully, but any contact I'd had with anyone else ended when I was around ten.

I know personality disorders are difficult to understand. Believe me, I've heard it all, but folks -- they are real and not all that rare. There is no need to look farther than DC to see many and one in particular.

One thing I know for certain and have the evidence to prove it. My ancestors really liked their camera!

Friday, January 30, 2026

Ah, the Years


My mother had boxes and boxes of photos that I brought home when I was clearing out her house in 2020. I went through some of them but not all. These past few days I have been spending time looking through some. 

So......the passage of time: 

The back of this photo says I was six. My mother liked curly hair.


No age on this but I would guess maybe eight?


Again, no age. This is a little harder to guess. I would say from eleven to thirteen.


This photo I posted before to show the "don't mess with me" face I already had as a teen. I have a junior high yearbook that places me in ninth grade. I would have been fourteen at the time the photo was taken and fifteen a couple of months later.


This is my junior year in highschool. I was sixteen at the time of the photo and seventeen a couple of months later.


Looking at the expression on my face I think I understand why I never had a boyfriend during my school years. I may have scared them!

Thursday, January 29, 2026

Doggie Memory


Howard B. Hound



 
He was a fellow of many talents.

Monday, January 26, 2026

 

Some won't be able to see this because it's on Threads. Even without the message I like the music. With the message I like it more.

I'm not going to be consistent with comments for awhile. My mental state is a wreck. I'm lousy company. My DIL is protesting whenever possible. They live in the city, in a diverse neighborhood, and she works in a government building in the city center. I'm proud of her and also concerned. We know it doesn't take much to end up facedown on the street or to be shot. Or murdered. The reality has hit.

https://www.threads.com/@skjervem/post/DT8XjfQDsbW?xmt=AQF04SpnZBjwvQdLWgKGpR4ZtWnvge4aMowF6tBGCyiVs8D0twXTmLBF1gtyi9Rvv-uxoWm1&slof=1

Sunday, January 25, 2026

Democracy in Action




Minneapolis, Minnesota. Where my son lives. Where I have lived. Twenty minutes from where I now live. There has not been violence against these thugs. They perpetuate violence. They are met with chanting, yelling, swearing, anger. They are not met with violence. I fear the rise in what was already over-the-top aggression is going to lead to what the whole point of this seems to be. Someone is going to snap. Then we will see if democracy can stand.

Saturday, January 24, 2026

And Again




 
                                



Cat Day


Tabby just finished a beer.


I don't allow cats on countertops. Mark thinks Tabs is different and should be allowed to be there if that's what he wants. I can relent, sometimes, so I try not to look, but of course I do. The compromises we make in life.

Friday, January 23, 2026

Brrrrrrrr

Dusk


It is -21 F with a wind chill factor of -37 (-29 C -38 C). It is a bit chilly. The horses will stay tucked into their stalls. As long as they have hay it's ok by them.


The fireplace has been busy. Mark brought in plenty of wood so he won't have to do that today. He does need to go out for the beasties, though. At least the barn is reasonably warm. I finished my latest Inspector Gamache book and have started on As I Lay Dying by William Faulkner. Sort of polar opposites. Next in the que is The Bell Jar by Sylvia Plath. Both books have been on the waiting list for awhile and both became ready at one time. I can get through both in the 21 days allotted.


I've kept myself busy and the kitchen warm the last few days with baking. A couple of days ago I made tarelli, a Southern Italian roll which is something like a bagel. Yesterday I made a lemon olive oil cake. Olive oil cakes are light and moist. Too bad they aren't calorie free!

So, a brief synopsis of life on the farm in January. Take care my east coast friends. You may be overwhelmed by snow.

Wednesday, January 21, 2026

Sunday, January 18, 2026

Day by Day

It may appear my life revolves around....
cats


and kitchen.


 Appearances, in this case, do not lie.

Friday, January 16, 2026

Think About It


 Not my words. Every bit my belief.



ROBERT L ARNOLD

On E Pluribus Unum


When Mike Madrid talks about E Pluribus Unum, I listen. That hasn’t always been true for everyone I’ve encountered in politics, but it’s true with him. Over time, through conversation, observation, and the simple act of paying attention, I’ve come to deeply respect his clarity, his honesty, and his refusal to flatten complicated truths into convenient talking points. Mike will tell you the phrase is better understood not as “from many, one,” but as from plurality, union.

 

And I should be clear here, for the sake of intellectual honesty and a little comedic humility… I am outright stealing that framing for this essay. Borrowing it heavily. Lifting it with affection. If this were a song, he’d already be owed a writing credit and a bourbon.

 

But I can’t leave good words alone. I’m stubborn, needy, maybe even a little crazy. So once Mike planted that idea in my head, I ouldn’t stop turning it over in my hands like a coin worn smooth by time, trying to feel what it must have meant when they first wrote it.

 

Imagine Franklin, Madison, and Jefferson in a cramped Philadelphia room, the summer heat clinging to them like guilt. They’re young… too young, maybe… ink-stained dreamers and philosophical arsonists trying to build a republic out of smoke and argument. Did they know what they were doing? Did they feel the weight of it? Or were they just giving it their best shot, thinking, if it breaks, we’ll fix it and keep going.

 

Maybe that’s the point.

Maybe that’s the real American creed.

 

To most of the world, we look arrogant. And maybe we are. But my favorite version of America has always been the one that rises from the dirt with a spark of defiance in its eye. The “the hell I won’t” version. The “hold my beer while we stomp out fascism” version. We are messy, hot-tempered, loud, and often wrong. We are descendants of firebrands, dirt farmers, dreamers, and drunks who thought they could make something holy out of ordinary people. And damned if they didn’t.

 

The plurality of Americans is a wild symphony… a thousand discordant notes that somehow, when it matters most, find harmony. That’s the real miracle. Not perfection. Not purity. But union. The kind of union that only exists when the storm hits and someone yells, “Hold the line.”

 

We are many colors, many creeds, many contradictions. We are Baptist and Buddhist, farmer and coder, miner and musician, sinner and saint. And yet, when we are truly threatened… not just politically inconvenienced but spiritually tested… something ancient and electric moves through us. Our divisions blur. Our blood remembers.

 

Because E Pluribus Unum was never about sameness. It was about choosing to belong to one another anyway.

 

We forget that sometimes. We let them sell us fear and call it patriotism. We let them pit us against our neighbors and convince us that anger is easier than empathy. But when the house starts to burn, none of that matters anymore. We reach for the same hose. We pull each other from the same flames. I believe we still have that in us. 

 

So yes, Mike is right of course, it really is from plurality … union. But I think it might be something deeper still. I think it’s a promise… that when we are pushed too far, when they try to rule us instead of represent us, our divided hearts will remember their rhythm. And when one bleeds, we all bleed.

 

And when that day comes… when the people of this fractured country stand shoulder to shoulder again and say, enough… no tyrant, no party, no self-crowned king will be able to stop what’s coming.

 

Because that’s America. Not the flag. Not the anthem. Not the marble halls of power.

But the spark that catches in the chest of the common people when they remember what they were born to be.

 

Out of many, one.

Out of pain, purpose.

Out of fear, fire.

 

And that fire… is coming.



Wednesday, January 14, 2026

Onward


Mark had an online CPE (continuing professional education) yesterday and, of course, his computer was uncooperative. I set it up on mine, meaning I was offline, other than the phone, all of Tuesday. He will be buying a new computer, which is a whole other story.

This is Tuesday morning's sky. It was even more dramatic in person.



Aggression on the part of ICE is ramping up. There seems to be a propensity for people being dragged from their vehicles. It's very thoughtful of the Supreme Leader to encourage Iranians to continue the protests, isn't it?

Have a lovely day. It's cold here.

Monday, January 12, 2026

Another Day

Saturday was my birthday. I made myself a blueberry galette topped with an extra spoonful of whipped cream.


I haven't been feeling particularly chatty. Neighbor Bill did stop by Saturday morning with a birthday card. His wife makes cards and does a beautiful job. I display them for awhile and always keep them. They are too nice and thoughtful to recycle. Other than that it was a quiet day. Mark offered to pick up dinner but I said no. I had bought steelhead trout and had plans to steam that. Which I did. We don't eat out. That started after I got too busy on the farm and was not interested in showering and getting dressed again. Nope. Showering and pajamas, thank you. Now? No interest. I'm a lively sort.


Sunday, January 11, 2026

Timely

I am not a science nerd. That said, I find myself interested in studies of the brain. I was on a forum in the 2000s, Midwest Horse Talk. It was my first exposure to a large group of people who believed what they believed no matter what the evidence was against it. It fascinated me while leaving me confused. Eventually I learned not to engage because nothing broke through. In the mid 2000s I came upon an article about a research study of the brain and the reaction differences between self-identified conservatives and self-identified liberals. I started to get it. I learned to not argue. To state a verifiable truth or an opinion, yes. But no arguing a point. 

I don't remember what study I saw all those years ago. There are many out there. I post this one because it is more understandable than many, which are mostly in scientific jargon. It's here if anyone is interested in this stuff.  

https://psychiatryonline.org/doi/10.1176/appi.neuropsych.16030051

Friday, January 9, 2026

Wednesday, January 7, 2026

Cruel. Abusive. Unacceptable


Mark went to the funeral of his Aunt Marlys on Saturday. She was married to one of his triplet uncles who proceeded her in death. This was on the back of the funeral program. She was an extremely kind, caring person. She was diligent in her help and care of the needy, not only here, but in other countries. She lived her faith.

I decided to post this here, on the day a woman was murdered in South Minneapolis by an ICE agent. Agent sounds not right. An ICE thug. He shot her in the face as she was driving away from them. He shot her in the face multiple times.The excuse is she tried to run them down. Fortunately, there is video and many witnesses. I have seen the video. It was murder. Her vehicle was parked across the road, the agents got out of the truck and approached her. One grabbed the door and told her to "get the fuck out of the car". She pulled out from where she was with wheels clearly turned away from them. There was no one in front of her vehicle. The guy who ordered her out shot her through the driver's window.



What have we become? How is it ok to have masked people in military garb, carrying weapons swarming our streets? Is this what one would expect in a free, democratic country? It eerily looks like a militant autocracy. No this is not "Trump Derangement Syndrome" on my part. This is in your face public brutality. The type of operations one would find in the countries with rulers. Totalitarian rulers. I am ashamed. I am deeply saddened.

Saturday, January 3, 2026

Isn't Everyday Cat Day?


Born in the barn....


......found sofas to be more comfy than hay bales.


 Can't blame them.

Friday, January 2, 2026

Quietude


We had a quiet day. Mark got the stalls cleaned. I got dinner prepped. I did say it was a quiet day.



I had a brisket in the oven for a few hours. Yes, under the onions there is a beef brisket. The onions absorbed all of the goodness as the brisket slowly cooked. I never tire of wonderful slow-cooked winter meals.


Now another year begins. 2025 was unstable and unsettling. Will we be turning a page? Ever hopeful. We do what we can and we appreciate what we have. I appreciate all of you. May it be a good year.

Thursday, January 1, 2026

Another Year


Happy New Year


 Sing It Loud