Everything sublime is as difficult as it is rare. Baruch Spinoza

Thursday, February 16, 2012

Out of the Fog, Perhaps

Well, it seems I have fallen off the face of the Earth. The truth to be told is, a year ago I had a head injury which has affected me more than I was usually aware of. To add insult to the injury I heard today that people with head injuries are more likely to fall victim to alzheimer disease. But how would I know, I cannot remember what I did from one minute to the next as it is! I am starting to feel more like myself now, I can type without creating gibberish and I am not under the grey cloud of depression that has shrouded me for nearly a year.

I found the simple format of Facebook to be much better suited to my limited abilities, so whatever exposure I had, I had there. I read once that Facebook is for people too lazy to blog. I found it is also for people too feeble in the mind with fingers that won't type what the brain thinks they should be typing. Not much thought goes into daily updates, which was right up my alley.

What prompted my return today? I received an email from someone wanting to interview me and feature the interview on their blog. I thought, seriously? I haven't had a thing to say for five months. Actually, I haven't had much to say for a year, but who's counting. I decided to see if this thing called This & That is still here and it is. Then I thought, maybe I should say something, anything; testing, 1 -2 -3.
With toe tentatively touching the water, I am hopeful that I can regenerate my interest and start visiting the old haunts I once enjoyed and reconnect with friends abandoned, but not forgotten. The depression does seem to be gone, but the sun is shining and the day is beautiful so perhaps it is just the loveliness of the day. I shall see. In the meantime I just wanted to say, I am upright and sniffing the air.


14 comments:

  1. Don't sweat it ... the internet is just another type of fog, filled with shadows, phony names and too much bad poetry.

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  2. HA! Ain't it the truth. I lay no claim to being poetically inclined, good or bad. More the limerick type. : ) But my name really is Sandra.

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  3. Thrilled you are back , in any way .
    And more importantly, thrilled that you are feeling better.

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  4. OOOOOOOOOOOO.....Deep sigh of satisfction. You're back! However tentatively. However temporarily. Sooo good! [[[Hug]]]

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  5. What a treat to see you posting!

    Some days I prefer the fog!It would be great if I could choose which days were foggy!

    I'm so glad you're feeling better!

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  6. I, for one of many....was very happy to see a post written by you. Could use some sunshine myself...one strange winter that has kept so many off balance. Look forward to getting more scoop on what you are doing. Already know you can make some AMAZING pies!

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  7. I'm somewhat overwhelmed by all the wonderful greetings. Thank you all so much. I hope I am back, I have had a few false starts before. I remind myself of an aging rock star continuously and pathetically making a comeback.

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  8. saw your comment over at deb's place, today, and immediately wanted to visit. so here i am, just as you begin to emerge from your fog. i'm so sorry to read of your injury; of the struggle to come out of the fog and darkness of illness and fear and depression. i know something of these places, myself. may you rejoice in the sun of this moment, and may there be many sunny days ahead.

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  9. I wrote a "welcome back to blogland" post last night, but it seems to have not made it. At any rate, you are an expressive writer whose words friends like to read!

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  10. Thank you Leslie. Fortunately, the depression has abated. I think I am returning to myself.

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  11. Jean, I know that blogger will eats posts! Thank you for your kind words, I am surprised anyone reads what I write, but also am pleased if I write something people can relate to.

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  12. So glad to see you back and to know that you are feeling better, coming out of the fog. If for nothing else, the blogging thing can be a pleasant diversion, an expressive outlet and a way to connect.
    I've been pretty absent since I went back to work to fill the college tuition coffers. Ironically, I'm working in the community college and am now painfully aware of the under-educated underbelly of my society. I spend a great deal of my time administering GED placement tests to dropouts, and they are minion.
    I had no idea, and it is very sobering, even on a good day. It's also sobering reentering the work force after 50. I battle feelings of irrelevance daily, and wonder where my memory and my smarts went. I don't even have an injury to blame. But enough whining.
    Seeing your post, and reading your subsequent entries made me very happy. I don't have time to read, comment or write much lately, but I had to pop in to say welcome back in every way.

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  13. Mel! I'm happy to hear from you. How exciting to be back in the work force. There is a large part of me that would enjoy the human interaction.

    It is very disturbing that we have a large uneducated populace. Something has gone terribly awry along the way. I can imagine that part of the job is not uplifting.

    I have you on my blog roll, so when you have something to say, I will know it. I don't know how long I will be around, I ebb & flow, but I am feeling good now. And I got tired of FB!

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I really appreciate the concept and sentiment behind awards, but I cannot participate in them anymore. I have too may and I have not got the time to devote to participating properly. To all who have honored me, I am grateful but I don't have seven more things to tell anyone about myself! And I'm a terrible passer-oner.