Everything sublime is as difficult as it is rare. Baruch Spinoza

Tuesday, March 4, 2025

Cloudy

Good dreary Tuesday morning. We may get rain, which we need. I went to PT yesterday and have a primary appointment later in the week. I like the physical therapist, she is conversational, making the whole thing rather pleasant. I also can tell I'm incrementally improving. All improvement is welcomed. 

My Frieda is doing her best to calm and relax me. It's a sacrifice for her, no doubt, but she is devoted to the cause. 


Has anyone had Chilean sea bass? I had not until a couple of days ago. Aldi had it in their special finds. It was expensive but not really when I looked it up online and saw it was less than half the normal cost. So I bought it. There is a completely different texture to any fish I've had, sort of creamy. Buttery? I liked it but will probably never have it again. Not at the going price. As things are right now, I wouldn't buy it again at the price I paid.


I'm going to have the Wellbutrin dosage increased when I see my primary this week. I'm on the lowest dose, which has been working well with the other med, but I'm starting to slip into the blackhole and I don't want to go there. Clinical depression is no joke. It steals your life. As many people know. This, lack of balance and some difficulty finding words seem to be the only lasting damage from the brain injury, which I am grateful for. It was worse. There is one more thing remaining, I show emotion much more than I did before TBI.

Well, 'nuff of that. One day at a time, right? 

22 comments:

Far Side of Fifty said...

Have you tried the seasonal disorder light? I have one and it does help especially in the depth of Winter. I am glad you see improvement in movement/pain with PT.

Sandra said...

I have, Far Side. I don't seem to benefit from it but it won't hurt to try again. Good news about FG coming home.

Boud said...

I've had Chilean sea bass, which used to have a less glam name, and it's pretty good, but not really good enough for what it costs.
Glad your pt is going well. A friendly therapist is great for healing.

CheerfulMonk said...

I'm glad you have a good PT. They can be invaluable (mine was!)

Anvilcloud said...

I hope Frieda is purring for you. It’s beneficial ti both of you.

Val Ewing said...

Yes, I fully understand your issues with finding words and balance issues from working with my hubby. It is no joke and it is hard.
I sure hope PT and the Wellbutrin help you come out of that black hole.

Sandra said...

I am the same, Boud. Too expensive.

Sandra said...

She is good at her job, Cheerful.

Sandra said...

Frieda was sound asleep, AC. She is a good purring kitty.

Sandra said...

Thanks, Val. You've had your share of experiencing that. The brain is a complicated for sure.

nick said...

I hope you don't slip into the black hole. I've never suffered from serious depression but I know it can be a dreadful experience.

Sandra said...

nick, I have realized I have been depressed for as long as I can remember but it was so normal to me I didn't realize it. I had a TBI in 2011 which changed a lot of things, including serious depression. It is dreadful and I have been doing well for a few years. I feel myself going backward and want to catch it before it engulfs me. The dopamine enhancer, Wellbutrin, really changed things when taken with Prozac.

Lori Skoog said...

You are improving....that is good. Don't let T push you into the toilet. I must confess, that I have also been showing emotion much more than I did before too. I get sick thinking about all the hardships people are going through. Hopefully the med adjustment will get you back in your groove....you have truly been on such a good roll.

Anonymous said...

I am so glad things are going well for you and as always I admire you for taking charge of your own well being.
Take Care,
Kaye

Beatrice P. Boyd said...

Chilean sea bass is something I have never gtried, but my husband has enjoyed it when we dined out, not on a regular bsis as it is costly as noted. Glad to read that the PT is having results.

Sandra said...

It's difficult not to be engaged in what is happening, Lori. I got a dosage adjustment and I'm hopeful it will stop the downward slide. Maybe today I will make soup!

Sandra said...

Hi, Kaye! I hope all is good with you.

Sandra said...

Thanks, Dorothy. Yes, very expensive. Not good enough to spend the money on again. And I got it for less than half the normal cost! The PT is helping me.

Pixie said...

I've been battling the black dog too and you're right, it's a dangerous, black hole. Sending hugs to you Sandra.

Sandra said...

It is, Pixie. I am not wanting to go there, so hopefully the dosage increase will help.

DeniseinVA said...

I haven't had Chilean Sea Bass but I'd like to try it sometime. Your plates look wonderful! I'm glad your PT has helped. I hope you can feel the rope we're sending down to you to get you out of that black hole. With everything going on, it's hard I know. I feel anxious all the time lately. You're right, one day at a time.

Sandra said...

It's expensive, Denise! I am feeling a little better right now. Hoping it will stick. Thank you for your kind thoughts.